Alice in Wonderland!!

What is the name of this feeling that comes with someone's voice and stays on for hours...days...its like im living in a fantasy world...unable to think clearly..unable to concentrate...y do i feel like not coming back to reality...to just stay this way...in a wonderland which is beautiful...full of hopes and dreams...only this wonderland is not a dream...its made out of complete faith in the near future..complete faith in a relation which is very pure and true..faith in someone very special..its amazing how this feeling brings two people so close that u can tell whats going on in the other person's mind just by the tone of the voice...u can sense it when u don't have someone's complete attention, u can sense the emotion in the words and they touch u deep down in your heart..you can feel someone's presence even when miles apart..its like u r living inside another person...y does someone else's happiness becomes more important than urs...why does the stress and anxiety in the other person's voice make u unconfortable and restless...am i living two lives at one moment...i dont know...but what i know is that ive never felt this way before in my entire life.. and sometimes it becomes so hard to handle..i dont know how to vent out this rush...it does give immense happiness but makes me damn vunerable..gives me strange mood swings..its like my moods are dependent on the other person...i smile when the other person smiles and cry when the other person even mentions being low..ive started taking small things to my heart which otherwise i would not even notice and laugh away...ive started noticing myself very carefully and find faults in everythng about me...i experience a strange satisfaction everytime i talk to someone and a strange hollow feeling when i dont...y do i want time to freeze sometimes...to just be...its wonderful, its beautiful...im loving every moment of it..

The highs and lows...

its a strange phrase of life...one day m all smiles...happy excited..loving every moment and the very next day m full of questions, uncertainities...what does the future hold for me...how will i ever be able to juggle between the life ive lived for 25 yrs and the one which hasnt yet started...will i ever be able to make everyone happy...sometimes the task seems to difficult...why has god made me like this...why is it so difficult to say i care..at this turn of life...everyone around wants my love and attention..for me to show them how much i care..but why do i have to say it evrytime...dont they already know..dont they understand me well enough..then why is it needed in words everytime..how do i satisfy everyone at the same time...n that too when right at the moment i need to figure out myself...i need to be alone...

Another new beginning....

It seems like this time of my life is full of new beginnings....and i have recently discovered my hidden talent of expressing my real feelings by writing them down...never knew this existed inside me...so y not discover it completely with a new blog...thanks to a dear frnd...i hope this makes life more beautiful, being in touch with my inner self...